A train ride to self love
Mana dil dara dara hai
Toota yeh zara zara hai
This song tells you about the strong, fitful gust of wind blowing across the breathing embers of your heart, sending little swirls of dust and debris flying through your insides and flickering the light in your smile.
As I begin to write, I feel myself as a delicate porcelain China in the shattered cabinets of my heart.
Dil ke iss bavandar ko
theher jaane do
You are drowning in the vast ocean of your heart, but pause for a while, take a break and keep going; for it isn't too late to find a lifeboat.
Your heart is pumping numbness into your inert veins, but take a deep breath and listen to the bones shivering in the graves of your body. Listen to the echoes of your empty cells and hollow arteries. Remind yourself, that it's okay to listen to the tuneless songs that lie beneath your skin. It's okay to feel the discordant chantings of your heart. It's okay, your emotions are valid.
Raat thodi gehri hai
sheher aane do
The night is a dying natural reserve, unable to preserve its flora and fauna. The night is a bow but the moon is never enough to become an arrow and shoot the darkness.
So you keep staring at the fan moving in circular orbits, just like your mind. But sometimes, you've to find the emptiness of the night sky comforting instead of waiting for some adequate amount of life. This song is to remind you that sometimes the red dwarf star is enough to burn and send you the light rays. At the end of the night, it will burn brighter than the Hercules constellation.
This song is about contentment. You don't always have to wait for the dusk to kiss the lofty peaks, let the flame of your candle melt the wax near the wick and before you realize, you'll see the walls of your room shining brighter like the yellow cotton candy.
To kya hua jo toota
Aaj sapna yeh tera
To kya hua jo aaj
Koi itna na mila
Life is a child removing jenga blocks of hopes and expectations in order to place them on top of a tower, but sometimes, the entire structure breaks with the removal of a tile. And that's okay. Sometimes you've to rest under a canopy in order to build a rainforest. Sometimes you've to let your heart turn into an empty slate in order to chalk your story again.
Kabhi to poora hoga
yeh chahato ka ghar
Kabhi to milhi jayega
Tujhko humsaafar
This song is a printed note to remind you that heritages are inherited only from the ruins of archaeological sites and monuments. It's okay, even if your house has thatched roofs, remember that it took over twenty years to build the Taj Mahal. Even if you have none to dwell in along with you, remember that the only thing that remained inside Pandora's box was hope.
The hands of a clock never stops to move, and so should you.
Tujhme na kami koi hai
Bas tera yeh din bura hai
Waqt ki baatein hai
Isse gujjar jaane do
Self love is the toughest subject in which you almost fail, but did your school ever teach its chapters?
Mirrors are everywhere, and insecurities sit in the reflection of your image.
Self love is a rollercoaster; but if I can fall without touching the ground and fly without any wings, you know how fun it is.
Waqt ki baatein is a realization. It tells you that self love is a feral pool of water you're bound to jump in, but if I can live underwater without knowing how to swim, you know how I'm inherently drawn to surfing life’s waves and enjoy the ride.
Sometimes the surface of a water body is as flat as a pancake, but it can be ferociously tempestuous amid a typhoon; so you've to descend underneath in order to find no tumult and conflict.
Magar jaha jaroorat thi
Wo raha nahi
Saath ka to chhodo
Khayal tak nahi
After taking a dip in water with the ones that were flowing with us, we've come to know who've stayed till we reached the shores. We've come to know the ones who drowned with us, and the ones who left despite the turbulent waves. We know who are there with us to watch the moon kiss the sea, and the ones who moved their lips with final words despite basting promises.
Jaane do jo jaa chuka hai
Kaun kab kaha ruka hai
Baat yeh fizool hai
Inhe bhool jaane do
This song tells you that it's okay if all the
gondoliers, canoeists and ferrymen turn into strangers. You'll learn how to manually propel a boat using a paddle. You'll become the motion of oars in water and row across the Atlantic.
Even if you don't find a submarine, you'll build one, slowly but eventually. You'll find the shore in the waves, tides, and in yourself.
Tu muskurana chahe
To darne lagta hai
Kahi nazar teri
Khushi ko na lage
Your smile feels like a futile attempt of happiness woven. It is bungling down a bumpy road, you pick it up, tremble to keep it for long and then throw it away. You're scared of losing the way you beam and burst into a wide grin.
But this song tells you that it's a good omen, you're scared of losing yourself instead of others.
Kisi pe aana chahe
To kaise aaye dil
Yeh phir se tootne ke
Khayal se dare
You feel that love is an endless script of heartbreaks, residing inside an empty bottle of whiskey; so you don't open the cap. And perhaps, you're right. But how many times did you let your heart find a home in you? How many times did you open the bottle of self love?
This song is a reminder, it's an alarm to let you know that no matter how many pockets of love you search to unlock the door to your heart, you'll always find the key in yours.
When you finally find it, keep it safe, protected and shelter it with your heart and some extra dose of serotonin.
Life can be choppy with endless rolling waves flipping but trust the fluidity, you'll soon learn how to spin in water.
After all, it's about waqt ki baatein.
